Covid got me last week. Took me down into this funnel of darkness… triggered all the ugliness within.. forcing me to dance with parts of me that I never wanted to see.
I have this amazing gift of compartmentalizing every aspect of my life. Keeping silos of emotions to avoid the integration. to avoid the hurt. to avoid feeling the pain of happiness.
Yes… the pain of happiness.
I’ve always been a pollyanna type of person. Sunshine and rainbows shooting from my ass… until the day my trauma caught up with me… and asked me for a dance.